Another year has passed. We are still TTC. Nothing much has changed. Our daughter is a year older, Ive gotten and lost another job, and we've moved into our forever home. I am almost positive that a Clomid cycle worked again this last December, but ended in another miscarriage. Eventually I will get my second baby.
Today, I have taken my first dose of Provera to jump start AF. So far, its cd 40. Ive had my Clomid rx for a while now. I think Ive taken so long to jump on the band wagon again is because Im afraid of loss.
I think if i hear "youre young, you have plenty of time" one more time, I will flip out! I am 24, yes, but 40 is creeping up on my husband faster than I had hoped. Im afraid that one day he is going to say hes dont trying because of his age. i want a baby so badly, and now ive got the added pressure of time.
My sister in law recently gave birth to another son and my 3 yr old watched her belly grow and sees the outcome of that, and now shes asking for a baby sister more than ever. most parents worry about convincing their child that we cannot control the gender of the baby we're trying for, and i have to worry about not being able to produce this said baby at all.
now my mind is really racing lol i guess its about time to close.
