(day 80)

Day 80 of my cycle... still no sign of a period. ive noticed in the past few months that my hair is thinning, too. i noticed it was falling out while brushing and showering but people lose an average of 180 hairs a day, so i thought nothing of it, but im starting to see a difference now.
grandpa (my only father figure) has lung cancer, we'll find out in the next 1-2 weeks to see how long we have with him. 3 weeks til my first wedding anniversary, lets keep things up beat :)

(day 75)

So today made day 75 of my cycle :( doesnt make me happy that its been a long one... Had to reschedule my OB app too. DH is going outta town on the original date, so now its set for a whole month later! March 8th. I'm gonna see if I can find another OB to go to. Might as well, its not like this is my original OB anyways. This app would put me 3 months late for my pap... yea, I'm gonna look into a new OB.

(day 64)

I've called the new OB today. I go in Feb 8th. I'll be 2 months late for my semi-annual pap, too, and with the cervical dysplasia that's not a good thing. I'm sure everything will be fine. If anything, we'll just have to go through the same routine: pap comes back abnormal, go in for a colposcopy, everything looks ok for now, see you in 6 months.
I told the nurse that I would like to talk to the doctor about our problem conceiving a second baby. I almost feel selfish for considering it a  problem that we want a second one when there are so many women out there striving for just one.

Some thought before calling the OB (day64)

I've done a lot of reading about PCOS and I'm almost sure this is whats causing the hold up... Hopefully this doctor can tell me something I don't already know. Today is day 64 of my cycle and I don't think Ive ever prayed so much for a period. Just a simple sign of normalcy would be nice. Last month was 43 days, I believe, and the month before that was 59. I so grateful to have Bianca. I couldn't imagine what the women out there have to go through without even a single child. All I ask for is one more, then I'm done, I promise.
I hope I can get into this doctor. And I hope they're nice to me like my OB in Cincinnati. Lets give it up to hope... Its getting late, I should sleep but it seems nearly impossible.

A Little About Us...

Jon and I, after a few short months of dating, found out we were going to be parents in January of 2009. Our daughter, Bianca, was born in September of 2009. In February of 2010, we made our family official and tied the knot. In July of 2010, we decided to go off of birth control and see what nature handed us. Its now January of 2011 and we have yet to have conceived a second baby.
We've tried to test for ovulation, but the tests always seemed to have showed an elevation in my Lh levels, so it would seem as though I was ovulating for a week straight, or none at all. Since giving up on OPKs, we've kept track of my cycle days on the calendar. My cycles vary from 40-60 days a piece. We've considered the temperature tracking but it almost seems pointless since my cycles are abnormally long. This was never a problem before giving birth to my daughter.
I plan to call the OBGYN tomorrow morning to see if I can get in and have a good long chat about this. Its obvious my worst fear is infertility. So, this is where I am today, and this is our journey...